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Wednesday, November 5, 2008

04 & 05.11.2008 ENGLISH LANGUAGE TEACHING METHODOLOGY

finally...
my days as an IPBArian is over. sat for our final final exam paper today and this time, the questions were tough. i dunno how many correct answers that i gave but i no a lot of the wrong one been written by my own lefthand using my Pilot blue pen. at least i know i won't fail...

we went for shopping after the exam. with an intention to reward our selves after this hectic year... (do we have to reward our ownself every single week?).. alasan la tu kan.. i planned to buy two bags as my school bag for the school term next year but i cant find any attractive bag.

but i was excellently completed my mission to buy new blouse and i took 2 for me and another two for my sis eventhough i'd been warned by Mak not to shop for clothes again or else the wordrobe will explode some day.. ampun mak, nafsu telah mengatasi ingatan tentang pesananmu itu. oh, dont forget my elegant Burberry keychain, i really like it!! verrrry much..

and i am currently on my bed. tired.. i have to sleep earlier today i think. a lot of things need to be settled tomorrow...

see ya again...

Monday, November 3, 2008

03.11.2008 ilmu pendidikan

we sat for our 1st final exam paper today and it was an Educational Studies.

overall, the question was not too difficult but is was not easy at all. the section A was tricky. multiple questions. the answer was there but it was tooooooooo difficult to choose. but i did complete all the answers. either it is right or wrong.. haha..

aktiviti gorengan seperti biasa. i did the answers using common sense. apa kau ingat psikologi itu teori kau.. i almost found my own theory during the exam.. huhu.. (According to Fadilah (Nov,2008)...). everything went well. i hope i will pass this paper... at least...

straight after the exam (11.30 am), we head to MidValley. planned to buy some needs (again) as our preparation to our Biro TataNegara (BTN) this Thursday. had our lunch at TCRS. head to Jusco and back to IPBA.

checked my mail. checked my mission.. perform solat and here i am again... blogging yang tak seberapa. i have to revise again tonite for my English Language Teaching Methodology (ELTM) Paper 1 (covers on Proficiency and Language Studies, oh my...). a lot of topics to cover. i still didn't master and not even learn the phonetic symbol... i have to focus on grammar... mak, kenapa perlu ada exam...

ok guys. wish me luck. semoga ketabahan mengiringi perjalananku malam ini...

p/s: can't wait for another responses... huhu..

Saturday, November 1, 2008

sesi luahan perasaan

i was on YM today and found my fren there. they (he and his wife) was my colleagues at my former workplace. we did a lot of reflections today and it was all about my life actually..

i told them the actual story and thanks for them because they are the only party who asks me this question. "Why did u really hate that bitch? what happened?".. as i know they are educated people, i am very open to them today. i told them all the stories... from A to Z. i can't bear to hold this alone. i need support. and i am currently strong and tough with my new status. and i want people to know the things and what happened actually...

they advice me a lot. to find a better person and i will definitely do that..

i realize that - i did a lot but i got nothing. i did a lot of sacrifice but it had not been appreciated. i always think about others without considering my own feeling.

i will ignore all those bitter moments and all those annoying creatures...

here i am, an excellent Fadilah with brave and big heart...

thank you to both of them.

p/s: remember frens, biar jahat asal jangan sundal..!! huhu

Bukan mudah jadi Cikgu 2

IPBA banyak ajar aku tentang kemuliaan keje seorang guru. Hari pertama menjlani kuliah kat sini, kitorang semua ditanya soalan yang sama – “Wny do you want to be a teacher?” – “Why did you chose this profession?”… bagi aku, soalan ni amat mencabar. Terlalu. Tak tau nak jawab pe tapi bagi setiap lecturer yang mengajukn soalan tu aku jawab ; “Teaching is a noble job”.

Sebagai seorang yang penah bekerja selain dari profession keguruan, then belajar menjadi guru dan pernah menjalani latihan praktikal kat skolah, kini baru aku tau nak pegang title guru ni bukanlah perkara mudah macam yang aku sangka sebelum ni. Kalau aku rasa camtu, ape lagi la persepsi orang lain yang selama ni slalu sangat kondem guru-guru kat Malaysia ni.

Dulu aku ingatkan jadi cikgu ni mudah – g skolah, ngajar (yang rasanya bukanlah perkara susah sangat), handle ko-kurikulum, handle program skolah, bg balik skolah tengahari, petang bole tido kat umah, rilek.. rilek.. rilek.. ujung bulan dapat gaji.

Tapi semua tanggapan aku tu salah dan sangat salah!!

Masa belaja nak jadi cikgu ni, baru la aku tau peritnye nak bentuk seorang cikgu. Cikgu kena blaja subjek opsyen dengan jayanye – belajar hingga ke akar umbi, subjek minor pun lbh kurang gtu la jgk, cikgu kena blaja psikologi pendidikan yang sangat banyak to adapt with school environment, cikgu tetap kena blaja pendidikan alam sekitar, pendidikan islam dan moral, cikgu2 ni tetap kena belaja pendidikan jasmani – melompat berlari main gelung, main bola – sama macam time skolah rendah dulu.. dan macam2 lagi la future teacher kena buat sebelum betul lepas nak jadi cikgu.

Keadaan sebenar kat skolah (walaupun aku penah dok skolah 3 bulan je) – datang kena seawal pagi, assembly pagi (hari2) cikgu wajib attend, masuk clas dan mengajar – cikgu praktikal macam aku dulu akan masuk clas sejam je sehari, maksudnya satu class je untuk sehari tapi cikgu betul kena masuk 6 class sehari means 6 jam untuk sehari sesi sekolah. Bayangkan ada cikgu tu kadang-kadang ada waktu bernafas time budak-budak rehat pagi je. Dah abis ngajar, keje cikgu belum tentu abis lagi – mesyuarat sekurang-kurangnya sekali seminggu (selebih-lebihnya kadang2 ari2), setiap rabu confirm ada ko-kurikulum yang semua cikgu wajib attend. Agak rehat biasanya time jumaat je.

Balik umah – petang confirm cikgu tido.. try tanya guru2 Malaysia yang lain. Aku time ngajar dulu, lepas balik skolah, settle keje pape yang patut, then tido… itu pasti. Petang tu kira aktiviti sendiri la kan. Malam – lesson plan (rancangan mengajar) kena buat. Lesson plan ni adalah satu dokumen wajib yang cikgu-cikgu kena buat sebelum masuk class. Apa yang akan di ajar esok, topic ape, apa yg budak2 akan capai, curriculum spec kementerian kena ikut, aktiviti kena ikut student’s level, worksheet kena sediakan (kalau budak 3 level – bijak, sederhana, lemah – maka 3 jenis worksheet la kena buat) – itu untuk satu class, kalau sehari cikgu ajar 5 hingga 6 class?

Dalam class – cikgu tak boleh duduk, cikgu kena pastikan anak murid dapat apa yang dia ajar. Cikgu kena control class. Cikgu kena tahan kerenah budak-budak yang tak seberapa baiknya tu. Cikgu kena uruskan budak pandai yang byk tanya. Kena pastikan budak lemah faham apa yang disampaikan. Kena pastikan diorang tak bergaduh. Masalah nak kencing la, nak berak la, nak kuar g tandas la, nak bertumbuk la… segala pergerakan murid skolah dalam kawasan sekolah semua di bawah tanggungjawab cikgu.

Tu tak kira lagi parents complaint. Tu tak puas ati, ni tak puas ati. Mintak yuran marah, tapi kalau abiskan duit untuk tuisyen anak tak kisah pulak. Padahal, tuisyen tu sekadar buat latih tubi je sedangkan kat skolah la budak2 ni belajar skill idup.

Tapi, ada ke orang nak hargai cikgu? Komplen pasal cikgu ni terrrrrrrrrrrrlalu banyak. Cikgu sibuk nak naik gaji je la. Nak naik gred la. Cikgu tak reti ajar la. Cikgu tak pandai la. Sume masalah setiap insan dalam dunia nak nak dituding pada cikgu. Tapi, pernah ke kita ni nak mencuba dalam sehari untuk menggantikan tempat diorang? Macamana sorang cikgu nak membentuk 40 orang budak yang pelbagai kerenah dan kemampuan untuk menjadi 40 budak yang cemerlang pelajarannya? Tapi, macamana jugak mak bapak mampu nak bentuk sorang anak dia menjadi cemerlang akademiknya tanpa bantuan cikgu?

Aku akan mula mengajar tahun depan. Dan aku sedar perkara ini menakutkan aku. Tapi aku akan pastikan setiap ilmu tu akan aku sampaikan dengan restu dan kasih sayang untuk setiap kanak-kanak yang aku ajar sebab aku mampu menjadi manusia seperti hari ni bukan aje sbb mak abah tapi jugak kerana didikan cikgu.