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Wednesday, November 5, 2008

04 & 05.11.2008 ENGLISH LANGUAGE TEACHING METHODOLOGY

finally...
my days as an IPBArian is over. sat for our final final exam paper today and this time, the questions were tough. i dunno how many correct answers that i gave but i no a lot of the wrong one been written by my own lefthand using my Pilot blue pen. at least i know i won't fail...

we went for shopping after the exam. with an intention to reward our selves after this hectic year... (do we have to reward our ownself every single week?).. alasan la tu kan.. i planned to buy two bags as my school bag for the school term next year but i cant find any attractive bag.

but i was excellently completed my mission to buy new blouse and i took 2 for me and another two for my sis eventhough i'd been warned by Mak not to shop for clothes again or else the wordrobe will explode some day.. ampun mak, nafsu telah mengatasi ingatan tentang pesananmu itu. oh, dont forget my elegant Burberry keychain, i really like it!! verrrry much..

and i am currently on my bed. tired.. i have to sleep earlier today i think. a lot of things need to be settled tomorrow...

see ya again...

Monday, November 3, 2008

03.11.2008 ilmu pendidikan

we sat for our 1st final exam paper today and it was an Educational Studies.

overall, the question was not too difficult but is was not easy at all. the section A was tricky. multiple questions. the answer was there but it was tooooooooo difficult to choose. but i did complete all the answers. either it is right or wrong.. haha..

aktiviti gorengan seperti biasa. i did the answers using common sense. apa kau ingat psikologi itu teori kau.. i almost found my own theory during the exam.. huhu.. (According to Fadilah (Nov,2008)...). everything went well. i hope i will pass this paper... at least...

straight after the exam (11.30 am), we head to MidValley. planned to buy some needs (again) as our preparation to our Biro TataNegara (BTN) this Thursday. had our lunch at TCRS. head to Jusco and back to IPBA.

checked my mail. checked my mission.. perform solat and here i am again... blogging yang tak seberapa. i have to revise again tonite for my English Language Teaching Methodology (ELTM) Paper 1 (covers on Proficiency and Language Studies, oh my...). a lot of topics to cover. i still didn't master and not even learn the phonetic symbol... i have to focus on grammar... mak, kenapa perlu ada exam...

ok guys. wish me luck. semoga ketabahan mengiringi perjalananku malam ini...

p/s: can't wait for another responses... huhu..

Saturday, November 1, 2008

sesi luahan perasaan

i was on YM today and found my fren there. they (he and his wife) was my colleagues at my former workplace. we did a lot of reflections today and it was all about my life actually..

i told them the actual story and thanks for them because they are the only party who asks me this question. "Why did u really hate that bitch? what happened?".. as i know they are educated people, i am very open to them today. i told them all the stories... from A to Z. i can't bear to hold this alone. i need support. and i am currently strong and tough with my new status. and i want people to know the things and what happened actually...

they advice me a lot. to find a better person and i will definitely do that..

i realize that - i did a lot but i got nothing. i did a lot of sacrifice but it had not been appreciated. i always think about others without considering my own feeling.

i will ignore all those bitter moments and all those annoying creatures...

here i am, an excellent Fadilah with brave and big heart...

thank you to both of them.

p/s: remember frens, biar jahat asal jangan sundal..!! huhu

Bukan mudah jadi Cikgu 2

IPBA banyak ajar aku tentang kemuliaan keje seorang guru. Hari pertama menjlani kuliah kat sini, kitorang semua ditanya soalan yang sama – “Wny do you want to be a teacher?” – “Why did you chose this profession?”… bagi aku, soalan ni amat mencabar. Terlalu. Tak tau nak jawab pe tapi bagi setiap lecturer yang mengajukn soalan tu aku jawab ; “Teaching is a noble job”.

Sebagai seorang yang penah bekerja selain dari profession keguruan, then belajar menjadi guru dan pernah menjalani latihan praktikal kat skolah, kini baru aku tau nak pegang title guru ni bukanlah perkara mudah macam yang aku sangka sebelum ni. Kalau aku rasa camtu, ape lagi la persepsi orang lain yang selama ni slalu sangat kondem guru-guru kat Malaysia ni.

Dulu aku ingatkan jadi cikgu ni mudah – g skolah, ngajar (yang rasanya bukanlah perkara susah sangat), handle ko-kurikulum, handle program skolah, bg balik skolah tengahari, petang bole tido kat umah, rilek.. rilek.. rilek.. ujung bulan dapat gaji.

Tapi semua tanggapan aku tu salah dan sangat salah!!

Masa belaja nak jadi cikgu ni, baru la aku tau peritnye nak bentuk seorang cikgu. Cikgu kena blaja subjek opsyen dengan jayanye – belajar hingga ke akar umbi, subjek minor pun lbh kurang gtu la jgk, cikgu kena blaja psikologi pendidikan yang sangat banyak to adapt with school environment, cikgu tetap kena blaja pendidikan alam sekitar, pendidikan islam dan moral, cikgu2 ni tetap kena belaja pendidikan jasmani – melompat berlari main gelung, main bola – sama macam time skolah rendah dulu.. dan macam2 lagi la future teacher kena buat sebelum betul lepas nak jadi cikgu.

Keadaan sebenar kat skolah (walaupun aku penah dok skolah 3 bulan je) – datang kena seawal pagi, assembly pagi (hari2) cikgu wajib attend, masuk clas dan mengajar – cikgu praktikal macam aku dulu akan masuk clas sejam je sehari, maksudnya satu class je untuk sehari tapi cikgu betul kena masuk 6 class sehari means 6 jam untuk sehari sesi sekolah. Bayangkan ada cikgu tu kadang-kadang ada waktu bernafas time budak-budak rehat pagi je. Dah abis ngajar, keje cikgu belum tentu abis lagi – mesyuarat sekurang-kurangnya sekali seminggu (selebih-lebihnya kadang2 ari2), setiap rabu confirm ada ko-kurikulum yang semua cikgu wajib attend. Agak rehat biasanya time jumaat je.

Balik umah – petang confirm cikgu tido.. try tanya guru2 Malaysia yang lain. Aku time ngajar dulu, lepas balik skolah, settle keje pape yang patut, then tido… itu pasti. Petang tu kira aktiviti sendiri la kan. Malam – lesson plan (rancangan mengajar) kena buat. Lesson plan ni adalah satu dokumen wajib yang cikgu-cikgu kena buat sebelum masuk class. Apa yang akan di ajar esok, topic ape, apa yg budak2 akan capai, curriculum spec kementerian kena ikut, aktiviti kena ikut student’s level, worksheet kena sediakan (kalau budak 3 level – bijak, sederhana, lemah – maka 3 jenis worksheet la kena buat) – itu untuk satu class, kalau sehari cikgu ajar 5 hingga 6 class?

Dalam class – cikgu tak boleh duduk, cikgu kena pastikan anak murid dapat apa yang dia ajar. Cikgu kena control class. Cikgu kena tahan kerenah budak-budak yang tak seberapa baiknya tu. Cikgu kena uruskan budak pandai yang byk tanya. Kena pastikan budak lemah faham apa yang disampaikan. Kena pastikan diorang tak bergaduh. Masalah nak kencing la, nak berak la, nak kuar g tandas la, nak bertumbuk la… segala pergerakan murid skolah dalam kawasan sekolah semua di bawah tanggungjawab cikgu.

Tu tak kira lagi parents complaint. Tu tak puas ati, ni tak puas ati. Mintak yuran marah, tapi kalau abiskan duit untuk tuisyen anak tak kisah pulak. Padahal, tuisyen tu sekadar buat latih tubi je sedangkan kat skolah la budak2 ni belajar skill idup.

Tapi, ada ke orang nak hargai cikgu? Komplen pasal cikgu ni terrrrrrrrrrrrlalu banyak. Cikgu sibuk nak naik gaji je la. Nak naik gred la. Cikgu tak reti ajar la. Cikgu tak pandai la. Sume masalah setiap insan dalam dunia nak nak dituding pada cikgu. Tapi, pernah ke kita ni nak mencuba dalam sehari untuk menggantikan tempat diorang? Macamana sorang cikgu nak membentuk 40 orang budak yang pelbagai kerenah dan kemampuan untuk menjadi 40 budak yang cemerlang pelajarannya? Tapi, macamana jugak mak bapak mampu nak bentuk sorang anak dia menjadi cemerlang akademiknya tanpa bantuan cikgu?

Aku akan mula mengajar tahun depan. Dan aku sedar perkara ini menakutkan aku. Tapi aku akan pastikan setiap ilmu tu akan aku sampaikan dengan restu dan kasih sayang untuk setiap kanak-kanak yang aku ajar sebab aku mampu menjadi manusia seperti hari ni bukan aje sbb mak abah tapi jugak kerana didikan cikgu.

Friday, October 31, 2008

stupid for you

once, i made a mistake and won't do the same again.

It's not everyday
That I find a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want

I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Set aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here

Cause this girl is falling stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you... The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move

But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my prideSo don't keep me hanging here

Cause this girl is falling stupid for you
Oh, oh stupid for you
Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there

And here I go just making the same mistakes...
I've fallen stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you... Oh, oh, oh, oh

but remember,
what you give, you will get back!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Bukan mudah jadi Cikgu 1

Kenapa aku sertai bidang pendidikan? Menjadi guru bukan la cita2 sebenar aku. Minat pun rasanya tak cenderung sangat ke arah industri ni. Azam aku lepas grad dulu just nak dapatkan keje bagus, duit, kete, harta dan menjadi cikgu bukanlah salah satu daripada pilihan yang aku senaraikan.

Aku mula keje kat Hotel Sri Malaysia Temerloh dalam bulan puasa 2007. My former practical supervisor, Kak Zai offer aku untuk ganti post dia kat situ sebab dia nak benti keje dan start business sendiri. Aku setuju dan memulakan keje dengan belajar, observed dan belajar. Dapat offer lain, aku bla dr HSM and join my former boss at S.Siva & Co. It is a legal firm. Dan duit gaji bukanlah factor utama peralihan aku masa tu. Dalam tengah keje kat legal firm tu, akak aku sibuk pasal KPLI n my mum asked me to do the same. Aku buat aje seperti yang disarankan – apply pin no., online form and tunggu MTest.

Aku p MTest pada hari yang sama kawan ofis aku kawin. Aku ingat sangat time tu sebab aku jawab exam cepat2 dan nak pastikan aku tak terlambat time pengantin berarak. (Farah yang mintak KPLI pun tak dapat amik test sbb dia kawin laaaa…). MTest bulan 5, tak lama pastu dapat interview. On July 2007, aku p interview kat Maktab K.Lipis. Agak jauh la sbb tak biasa pegi tempat tu. Interview on Tuesday, but from Sunday to Monday before that I was in KL – hang out wif my bf ( it was at that time) and shoppingggggggg… tak sedar diri betul ketika itu.

Lepas interview, aku keje macam biasa tanpa apa2 persepsi bahawa aku akan diterima untuk KPLI nih. Tapi pada 19.12.2007, result KPLI kuar dan aku dapat this course and will be placed at Institut Perguruan Bahasa-Bahasa Antarabangsa(IPBA). Opsyen: Pengajian Inggeris. Aku terima dengan hati gembira. Orang dpt KPLI, aku dapat jugak tapi aku pegi dengan jiwa, dada dan otak yang kosong tanpa sebarang pengetahuan tentang bidang ni apatah lagi aku ni bukan la master dalam bahasa kedua Negara kita ni.

sambung next entry la eh.. tiba2 rasa nak tido..

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

why am i sooooooooooo lazy?

holla frens..

im ere again in my college. arrived ere around 1.30pm.. my first mission was to join my frens on this becoming exam revision but.. i just managed to revise on a few learning theory before again, went out to MidValley..

as im an informal embassador of MidValley (huhu), i have to visit that place everyday. to see how my place goes on. i went there to meet Hairi for some important business. we (Kak Akmar & me) went to Carrefour to buy the needs. Jusco - Sushi. La Boheme - breads and we have to wait for a looooooooong queue to get our taxi. tq to the driver for almost leaving me behind before i entered the car.

and now, im still ere on my bed. onlining.. chatting with my new fren @ facebook. "Hye adi.". ntoh ye ntoh dok la nama aok adi.. rakan sekampung rupanya.. and i even don't know that there are a lot of my frens (in semantan neighbourhood) have facebook until adi introduce them to me (and that bitch's boy also has one, ok). tq adi di atas jejak kasihan ini..

my rummate, Kak Akmar now screamiiingggggg from another room asking me to revise, revise, revise. but i am ere akak... promising myself that i dont want to do any revision until 30th November, 2008..

oh, aku perlu iron baju utk ke kelas esok hari...

sekian, tq.


Monday, October 27, 2008

macam2..

A lot of things to be settled today and I have a few activities as well to complete my day.. hehe..

1. Revise, revise, revise
2. Send adik to terminal
3. Hair cutting
4. Buy things to BTN
5. Check my stationeries and buy if any less
6. Hang out with CT (again..)

It is not a lot actually.. just a few things.. huhu.

I failed to settle No. 1 – can’t find any momentum to start.. Excuses again, dyll!!

Done No. 2 to 5.

Excellently completed No. 6.

CT fetched me at home. We went to town to buy her husband’s socks (for futsal game on the same nite). We met Yanti at our favourite restaurant – had my hot chicken soup.. yummy.. Met Haslam (CT’s hubby) @ his workplace to give him his sport attire) and we went straight to the carwash – Kak Yong’s stall operating at the carwash site on evening and they have open air karaoke set.. As there were girls outing – me alone and CT & Yanti without husband – crazy CT (again) suggested a karaoke session. This is my fav, girls.. haha. We did the same on my birthday actually, (Oh, my birthday is on 24th) and this is the opportunity to do the same. Since it is an open session, we were quite shy (really?) to perform to non-friends audience.. PERASAN!!!.. I chose Mahakarya Cinta but the track couldn’t be played, and Gantung by Melly couldn’t be played in mono mode.. Tq for the tracks..

I asked Kak Yong to sing Killing Me Softly with me and she has a good voice, ok. This is my first time singing this song.. and other crazy karaoke singing begin – we sang a full 10 dangdut songs.. We want to make those hours meaningful because the boys will finish their gae around 1.

At 1, the boys came and again I sang another one song. Kita Insan Biasa with Yantie’s husband, Busu. The same verse repeated until I get bored and sang my own melody.. My mum called at 1.30 asked me to reflect myself & realize where am I.. (Balik sekarang, dah pukul 1).. That was my final song for the nite and reached home at 2.. If it was not because the karaoke man have to work 5am on the next day, we might do our concert till dawn… or until the neighbourhood on the opposite site kill us…

Oh, I met Kak Shida (my former colleage) at Haslam’s workplace before while waiting for him. Did chit chatting about few things and I realized that she knows my sad untold story.. I hope she understand my stand and my problem with that Sundal.. oops.. I dunno why this type of woman still exist in this educated high-tech and open world.. and they act like it was no wrong with what they did to me… ooops again…
Past is past and I am fine ere but someone will be paid with the same to her relationship.. Just wait and see, bitch.. huhu

Overly expression already.. bubye frens..

Muahhsss..

Sunday, October 26, 2008

today

1.55am

just read a fren's blog.. tak tau pun aok ade blog wai. dunno wat to do other than surfing n surfing dan belayar serta meluncur lagi.. i am using my in law's broadband actually.. n my mak wont membebel when she sees me surfing and keep on increasing the amount to pay in her bill..

keadaan idup agak biasa pada hari ini. mak woke me up at 7.++am this morning. it was too early for me. its sunday ok. hari ahad adalah hari untuk tido walaupun ari2 aku tido andai ada masa terluang. abah went to pekan sari and suddenly, tayar motornya pancit selepas membeli nasi lemak kukus yang enak di Restoran Azhar.. you should try this. so i met him at one of the workshop.. bring back the breakfast and head to home.. itu je? bgn pagi, mandi, tukar baju, pakai bedak, pakai tudung cantik2 untuk amik nasi lemak sotong yang enak tu je. kalau sambung tido tadi mesti dah abis 2 episode cite. so as a reward sempena aku bangun awal pad hari AHAD - i bought myself InTrend, blackcurrent juice n anlene ape ntah tu at 7E..

read the mag, had breakfast & start surfing. delete previous blog, create new blog, make up blog tu skit and blogging la konon... at 5pm - my sis ajak kuar nak beli beg ape ntah. dah namanya anak jutawan brunei, ade je idea nak ngabiskan duit. kemananya tumpah nasi yang aku masak kalau bukan dalam pinggan adik aku.. huhu..

malam berazam nak baca buku - i repeat it again - nak baca buku a.k.a to read the educational studies book as a preparation for my EXAMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! but till this moment - hajat itu tidak kesampaian kerana aku tetap mengadap skrin laptop ini tanpa dapat apa-apa faedah pun selain dari YMing & membaca blog wai tadi tu la...

bilik dah gelap. tapi aku tetap depan laptop ni.. wai pun dah offline. to enter chat room? no way... no more true man in Malaysia, i guess. they keep on ask about sex, sex and sex.. what else?

i will send a gudnite wish for my fren after this and sleep!!

and bubye..
mmmuaahsss..

i should reflect myself after all this thing..

Honestly say… I am looking for an honest sincere man for my life. Is there any one of them there? Along my life… it was quite hard to find a man with care and sincerity. It sounds quite demanding but I keep wondering why I am the one who still cannot find one with these criteria. Why they go to other women? Or is it me – who is also not a good lady/girl/woman for them? Urm.. maybe.. I should think about this..



Looked at wedding pictures of friend or friend’s friend, I always thinking on why I can’t get any soulmate like them… I am not so desperate but I need a man in my life. I am not looking for marriage so soon but at least have a friend, brother, father, lover, enemy to share thought, laugh, cry… to fight, to care, to argue..

I do admit that I am not a very good girl but I am a loyal lover. I will do everything for my love and will do my best to make sure we are live in happiness along our relationship.. Don’t believe it? Ask my ex… huhu.. But what I got in return? Dissappointment.. uhuk.. uhuk.. I don’t want to bring all those bad things on but I have to think on the factors influenced all these disappointment.. I found a man who was not womanizer but he is tooooooooo jealousy.. we broke. I found a man who was patient and nice but he recalls his sweet memories back, and we broke. Why can’t I find a moderate nice man? Or am I a person who attracted to bad boys? Urrmm…

I always remember a quote sent by my BFF:

“Tuhan turunkan kita hujan sebab Dia nak bagi kita pelangi”

Ya.. it is might be true. And along this failed relationship which I expected will ended with ‘I do, I do’ Ijab and Kabul, I realize that, I have to think about my ownself before I do care and love someone else. But this is my nature.. I am a full of love type of person. I love to express my feeling, I like to appreciate and appreciations.. I love to pamper people I love and being pampered.. I like to care about my love and being cared…and this thing happen not just for my BF because I do the same to my friend and that is why I am fragile.. I won’t let others try to ruin the relationship but what can I do if the other party is on the sundal-ness side?

come on dyll, you can leave the sadness and live in better life. Its time to think about work, work, work.. improving myself towards happiness..

whats wrong with me?

hye frens..

i am currently on my holiday of Deepavali and definitely I am at home to spend my 5 days off. sound kewl, huh. but i will have a biggggggggggggggg event of my life as an old student just after this holiday. EXAMINATION. i was used with this phenomenon during my old days as young student but this time is different.

i am enggage into KPLI (post-grad teaching course) for this whole year and i am back to class, lectures and friends. we will have to do and get Diploma in Education to permit us to teach at school by 2009.. and this is the climax - EXAMINATION!! and i think i am the one who still do not open even a page of my new revision book. huhu and i promise to do so tonite, ok. tonite.

my days ere spent with outing ang hanging out with frens. bring my sister to buy her thing, bring mum to bank, buy groceries or in another word is - as a driver. i need an activity with frens on day but unfortunately, all of my frens ere are working and will just have time to spend with me on evening. so, i will 'lepaking' again n again each nite ere till about 1.30 a.m...

a few things happen to me ere. and the most hated thing is - to feel sad and lonely. i am facing a problem with my heart. i cant stand the situation. trying my best to avoid and ignore it by doing something else or hanging out with frens but i will jump into that hell again when they are not with me.. they also have their own things to do, ok. and whats wrong with me actually?

Holla guys...

Hello frens..

Finally I managed to publish my new blog. I had one before but because of security purposes, it had been deleted by my ownself.. huhu..

So fren, let us talk, share and laugh together here. I need your support and I will try my very best to post as frequent as possible. To share and to care.. will i?

It is good to start a new life with new status and environment. I am new Fadilah with my own surname without any illegal combination.

See ya, fren..
Mmuahhhs..